All that said, the personal, she is still political, yahyup.
What's my own stake in all this? Well, I could point to a number of things.
But a lot (not all) of what brought me to where I am today was a long-going formative experience that went something like this:
YOUTHFUL ME: i...i...i...o god. i think i might be...(swallow).. you know. gay.
AUTHORITY FIGURE: Lots of girls your age go through that phase. It doesn't mean anything. Why, when I was your age...
YOUTHFUL ME: yes yes but but you see i think about girls a *lot,* and i have these...feelings--
AUTHORITY FIGURE: Those feelings are natural! for your age. Ignore them. It doesn't mean you're gay!
YOUTHFUL ME: i know but i don't feel that way about boys.
AUTHORITY FIGURE: Well, you might just be a late bloomer. Everyone develops at their own rate!
YM: then why am i feeling this way about girls?
AF: I told you. You're young, and you're confused.
YM: i'm confused?
YM: i guess i am at that. anyway i feel just awful.
AF: Do you remember those tests you took? Here, I want to show you the results. Your tree drawing shows that you have no gender identity confusion. People who are confused about their gender identity draw a split trunk. Your trunk is straight!
YM: but i thought you said i am confused.
AF: You're not that confused.
AF: Anyway, you're still developing. Stop obsessing so much! You'll be fine.
YM: (bursts into tears)
AF: There, there, dear. Don't get upset. I just told you: I think you're fine. You're normal! Here, I think what you need is some affirmation from a Man.
DORKY MALE AUTHORITY FIGURE: I know just how you feel. When I was your age, all I could think about was my weight. I would eat and eat just to fill the gaping hole inside...
YM: are you saying that i'm fat?!?! (fresh tears)
DMAF: No, no, honey! I was talking about me. I know how hard is it when you're young and confused and have low self-esteem. That's all I'm saying.
DAF: You know what? Have you seen the movie "The Princess Bride?" I think you should go and see it. Because you are a princess, you know.
YM:...(sniffle) um, thanks.
FEMALE AUTHORITY FIGURE: And I'll tell you what, I think you need to get out more. Do you go to church?
YM: no, we're Jewish.
AF: Do you go to...temple?
AF: I'm going to recommend to your parents that you start.
YM: okay. why?
AF: Because you need to be among your peers.
YM: but why do you want us to go to synagogue?
AF: And I'm also going to recommend that you start this modelling course at John robert Powers. I think you'll enjoy it.
YM: well, that does sound like fun. i do like clothes and makeup...
AF: Good. See you next week.
AF: oh, WHAT?! I mean, yes, dear?
AF: (deep sigh) Look, I told you. I don't think you're gay. I just don't see you living that lifestyle.
...at least wait until college before you do anything about it.
Now. Go home. Follow the advice I gave you. Try to stop obsessing so much.
YM: okay. if you really think that will help.
AF: And put on a sweater. No, not that one. The pink one.